early life.

family history, childhood trauma and living conditions.

if i had to explain my living situation, i wouldn't know how to start. my mother's husband's second wife is my current mother and her second husband is my current father. they wanted to save face and so, they never really put me up for adoption. i'm the king of the bastards, as they say. (nobody is saying that.)

my parents conceived a biological child shortly after they got together. i didn’t pay him any mind, it’s not like it’s any of my business. i did have an older brother. he was really cool, he'd teach me a buncha things from how to properly light a cigarette and where to prod just right inside my ass to find the prostate. i think he was my first sexual awakening. it’s bad enough that we were seen as siblings by the outside world but he always justified our actions for not being related. i’m pretty certain he was getting off to the fact i was his little brother. he took good care of me. i was touch-starved for affection at the time, never having a male figure to look up to in my life, and so i swallowed everything he fed me. including the lies and all the bullshit our parents accused me of for covering his ass. from a young age, i learned affection came with a price.

that’s when the abuse started to happen. mom kept it verbal, dad has anger issues and so it was always physical with him. hyung would sexually assault me until i stopped saying no.

i started spending more time at the pc bang near my school. i used my lunch money to buy the hours, you see. i forgot about academics and started cutting classes a lot. it didn’t matter because nobody liked me at class, anyways and i was getting really good at league. i made friends from that game. i even started to attract a crowd behind me when i'm in a match at the pc bang. it's pretty fun. i’d win at tournaments and use the money to buy booze and drugs. i barely came home anymore and my hyung taught me how to couch surf. he became more aggressive with the touches when i turned sixteen and started doing more daring stuff like fucking me in public. we were a couple of dumb, horny teenagers and he never really stopped seeing me as his baby brother despite how sexual our relationship became.

anyways, when his real, biological sister flew home from california, he stopped giving me attention and i spent all my time and attention on video games. my parents got a divorce when they found out hyung knocked up noona. it was pretty fucked. he was still sixteen at the time, too. imagine being sixteen and a dad? i despise him the most out of everyone, he made me believe things i shouldn’t have. he made me normalize some really messed up shit. i feel sick to my stomach knowing i'm probably never gonna get better.

yet, believe it or not. my brother did love me, and it didn’t leave longer, lasting effects as much as my father’s abuse. i still struggle to talk about the things dad has done to me as a punishment. you know it’s real fucked when i can confidently talk about my incestuous brother fucking me open but i can’t even begin to describe what my father's abuse was like.

anyways, i was able to claim power over my sexual abuse by developing kinks and fetishes surrounding it. it was the only way i could understand and come into terms with my past and it’s been really helpful.

adolescence.

his rebel phase, the teenage angst and growing out of it.

his career.

RUMORS, SCANDALS AND CONTROVERSY.

miraculously, i graduated high school. education wasn't my top priority so i wasn't disappointed when my parents didn't show up or anything. as soon as i turned eighteen, i moved in with this boy who had connections with the e-sports community. i participated in league (skt/lck) and quickly rose to the top. i was really ahead of the game and joined the competitive overwatch scene in 2016. i became even more relevant and my fame was on an all-time high.

i started dating this boy from my team but dumped him after a few months for being too controlling and toxic. he outed me without my consent to our group and my teammates promised to keep my identity a secret if i would let take turns in using my ass, going as far as to "train" me before every match. before you start victim blaming. i want you to know the gaming community has a long way to go, most gamers are still ignorant and entitled to the point the racists, transphobes and homophobes take up most of the gaming community's space. if anybody finds out i'm gay, my career is over. this community is not welcoming of diversity.

i no longer felt safe and ratted out— not only my teammates, but— the entire overwatch league as a whole. blizzard didn't have the same security as riot games does when it came to drug-testing their members. these players would regularly snort coke and take adderal just to heighten their game performance. i mean, it's pretty common practice in e-sports, but god, nobody was subtle about it. it was pretty much a breeze when it came to collecting evidence and i had the entire group (including myself) terminated. what a shitty revenge story, right?

being diagnosed with social anxiety, mdd and agoraphobia, jules stays indoors. he does freelancing work online and plays valorant on his free time. he works as a video editor, a music producer and a graphic designer. he enjoys editing vlogs for hot-shot youtubers and mix records of the indie bands in his local scene. he also works for his friend that owns a club every weekend or friday night, as an audio engineer.

he’s in his third year of audio engineering in yonsei university.

jules considers going back to e-sports, but he streams most nights on twitch, instead. the income is very inconsistent.

current life.

because the internet.

LINKS.

• twitter

• curiouscat

• patreon

• onlyfans

ooc.

rules, warnings & disclaimer.

STRICTLY IC. my oc's actions does not reflect the real person. ic =/= ooc.THE CLAIMS about blizzard and riot games are FAKE. fiction.triggers include: dark, offensive humor. history and mentions of rape, incest, child abuse. drug use. self-harm. suicidal thoughts. violence.

• continue

ooc.

rules, warnings & disclaimer.

TYPIST is over 21. timezone is gmt + 8. i am always in character unless stated otherwise.timeline is used as a social media platform. i have no plot page. i focus on first interactions and chemistry.desc lit rps are done through dms and discord ONLY.

• LOAD SAVE